Phil was at dialysis last night when I received a very disturbing e-mail from one of the lists to which I am subscribed. It came from the account of a man who had written he felt suicidal about a week before. He was experiencing some heavy Internet bullying which just didn’t stop. The e-mail last night was from a cousin of his saying he did it by hanging himself. When I read about his suicidal feelings last week, I definitely said some prayers for him over the next few days, but I didn’t reach out. The man who killed himself disclosed he had mental illness, and ironically he seemed to have a strong faith as well. I felt very badly for the next 24 hours wondering if I could have made a difference. Today I learned other list members had been reaching out and talking to him for years . They expressed frustration that they couldn’t contact anyone in his country to try to get him help. I don’t feel quite so badly, but it does raise questions about how responsible we are to get someone help in these situations.
Phil has been home the last couple of days with motion sickness. He gets this every once in a while when muscles are tense. He originally thought it was from some pain medication, but that has passed. His fingers are still hurting, despite seeing the primary care physician who put him on antibiotics. He sees the hand specialists Tuesday.
We were to have a cook-out with friends tonight. it would have been the perfect night for it weather-wise, but Phil wouldn’t have been up to it. He has dialysis tomorrow, and then we are to go to a wedding tomorrow afternoon. I hope I don’t have to go by myself.
The great part about him being home is that he was able to make a couple of valuable suggestions regarding the informational note I am starting to send to event planners. A Google search is pulling up results for event planners in the Twin Cities. I polished the note today and sent a couple. One planner has already requested more information and the sample file of a Malt Shop performance. I put the link to it in another entry, but in case there are new people reading who would like it, I’ll close with it here.